Sunday, March 28, 2010
Goodbye for now,my Little Zac!
Because I had been concentrating on nursing and trying to save a 4wk old kitten most of Wednesday(March 25th) and all Thursday night(March 26th)..I didn't notice Zaccy my Black Miniature cat wasn't around or coming when called at dinnertime.I'd seen him eat his dinner very late Wednesday night(around 11p.m.)..then I suppose I concentrated on the little kitten,which was struggling..giving it most of my attention.
At first,I thought Zac was probably just curled up asleep somewhere,he was very good at hiding when he wanted to! As time went on though,I became,more and more worried.
This little guy hated leaving my room,let alone going further afield.Something definitely felt "wrong"!
I went searching everywhere for him,there was a small hole he could have gotten out,but I did actually for some reason have a feeling of foreboding.When at 2am in the morning I came inside after going out with the torch to search the yard and street for him all to no avail....I just knew I couldn't give up looking for him,something pressed me on!
Exhausted,I came inside and was ready to collapse into bed.....then, I made the discovery that chilled my blood and broke my heart..
There he was,right down the bottom of my bed.He was dead..he had been there on the TV,one of his favourite spots the night before.I thought it odd that he was letting his sister Tyra have his spot..or was not up to his usual tricks Such as,hiding behind the pc screen and waiting 'til I put my toast there,so he could pull it through,or using his "sunbed" my radio!Or sliding down the front of the computer screen,to come sit on my lap.....with little regard for any damage he may cause!But you had to forgive him immediately,he was so damn cute.....only had to look at you.He had quite a personality,yet a quite little lad,who liked to stay in the bedroom,"his room"near me,always.He was born there spent all his time there..apart from eating..and so sadly and tragically died there.I should have known.
.....I think he wanted me to find him.....I'm sure of it!
From what I can peice togrther poor little Zac had fallen off the TV as he did many times.Only this time he didn't clamber back up! immediately.He looked beautiful ,peaceful,calm,simply sleeping.
Initially I thought perhaps he'd got the aerial cable caught around his neck,but if that were the case..being within 3' of him,surely I'd have heard..and it would still be there?!
I believe being a miniature and so tiny, that he most probably had a congenital heart defect(he often breathed very heavily and made strange noises,was obviously delicate) and he'd had a heart attack in his sleep!
I'm still in shock..It's hard to find words..
Apart from to give thanks for the time I had with this very special little cat,his love and friendship! I hope he was happy living with me,"Mama",because he gave me so much joy!
Tomorrow,he will be buried alonside "Miffy",his great grandmother,Delia,his sister and The 4 little babies,who'd all passed.
Zac I'm sad to lose the kittens.....but you,my precious darling,will be taking some of my heart with you!
I hope it was fast and painless,but I know you have peace now.Hope I do one day.I wish I could have stopped this!
I love you little boy,my heart is heavy and you will always be in it!
Rest in Peace Zac.....and wait for me ,I'll be with you.Go and stay with Mum and Miffy until then!
Bless you,beautiful little black boy!
Zac 2 April 2009 ~ 26th March 2010
Never forgotten,always treasured!
I think Zaccy died sometime on Thursday afternoon between 2p.m. and at the latest 8p.m......I tend to think it was around 2p.m. on Thursday March 26th.Bless his soul.My beautiful miniature boy!
LOVE AND MISS YOU FOREVER ZAC! YOU WERE ONE IN A MILLION,BILLION,TRILLION,
NO YOU WERE THE ONLY ONE OF YOU! A UNIQUE AND WONDERFUL FRIEND! SMALL IN STATURE,BUT HUGE IN EVERY OTHER WAY! MY LITTLE MAN~JOURNEY ON BABY AND HAVE PEACE FOREVER!
LOVE YOU SO MUCH~THAT'S FOREVER!